The end is near.

My sister has often asked me what are my three deepest desires?
I can never answer that question. Try as I might. Thinking about it right now I'd say my deepest desires are about my students and my family.

With just about two months left out here, I really wonder what my students will become once I go home. I want so badly for them to be successful. I want for them to be encouraged and supported throughout all that they do. I want for them to know how smart they are and just how much good they have to offer the world. I want them to get their ten hugs a day. I want them to find their passions and be happy. I want them to know that they have value. A ton of it. I want every thing good to come their way and I want them to greet it, welcome it with open arms and an open heart.

I know that can't happen. For anyone. Life isn't nothing but sunshine. Still, that is my desire for them. That the good of their life outweigh the bad and they know how to push through the storm and soak up the sun once it passes.

Secondly my desire is to be near my family. Say what you will about being an adult and being "on your own" but, I need/want my family around. I miss my mom's jokes and the sound of her sewing machine. I miss my dad's dancing and having him around to fix anything (even a broken heart). I miss my brother's hugs, sing alongs with my sister and having my other brother around to pat me on the back and tell me he's proud to have me as his little sister. I miss Nana's hellos in the morning. I want to be able to get in the car and visit my grandparents on the weekend.

I never gave much thought into the idea of "home" and knowing where that was. Now that I've gone away I know that I do have a home and this is not it.